We learned over the weekend that Ryan Freel, who took his own life a year ago this Sunday, suffered from chronic traumatic encephalopathy, or CTE, a condition caused by concussions and which has been linked to suicide.
But Freel suffered from so much more. He was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ADD and depression. He was an alcoholic with impulse control problems and anger issues. He was addicted to baseball and the thrill it gave him and was unable to find happiness in his life when his career ended. He seriously abused steroids in a vain effort to make a baseball comeback and ballooned in size. He became estranged from his family and surrounded himself with guns. Just as he hit bottom, his mother took all of his guns away from him. Or so she thought. His final words to anyone before taking his own life came in a text message to his mom: “you forgot one.”
Back in April, Brett Popplewell of SportsNet told the story of Freel’s downward spiral and final days. It’s reposted today in the wake of the CTE diagnosis and the approach of the anniversary of Freel’s death. It’s a difficult yet gripping read. And one anyone who forgets that there is a human side to the athletes who entertain us every day should take in as soon as possible.